And Halloweeeeeeeeen.....it was fun...but not as much fun as I expect...only 4 people out of 15 poeple dressed up!!!and ofcourse I was one of them:)My phylosophy is that..there is one day in the year that you can be crazy and be whatever you want so why not enjoy it...I was a native indian;)and it was fun...but I guess I used too much glitter on my face...but I realized one thing in that party..that I am not an observent person at all....:(I mean when one of my friends described some one's behaviour at the party for me after the fact...I realized how I l remember about it..but never read too much into it..or may be I didn't care...its wiered...I mean at the moment I realized what happened but I didn't think about it much...that is why it is alway important to have some stranger to come to your life and be with you for a while and tells you what he/she thinks...and now I begin to see the point of a third party...on a matter...you can be so caught up in the moment or used to something that you may not see the trueth in what you think or do...

last night my 5 best friends and previous classmates went to Greek town...I think by now I have established the fact I love greek food..music...dance...well I don't know about their men;) anyhow it was interesting in the begining we all had one story which was the same for all of since our lives was only studying and now everyone have their own story to tell...I just hope that the next time I see them..my story is different than the story I told them last night....and as always although I am learning the art of living!!but I will smile..if destiny take away everything I have and value...it can't take away my smile...so now I said it...so if I don't find my favourite job...or my better half (as Joelle puts it;)) I am not going to be depressed...I am going to smile..

Holloweennnnnnnn

what a girl wants (Christina..) soooooooo true:)
What a girl wants, what a girl needs

I wanna thank you
For giving me, time to breathe
Like a rock you waited so patiently
While I got it together, oh
While I figured it out
I only looked but I never touched
'Cause in my heart was a picture of us
Holding hands, making plans
And it's lucky for me you understand

What a girl wants, what a girl needs
Whatever makes me happy sets you free
And I'm thanking you for knowing exactly
What a girl wants, what a girl needs
Whatever keeps me in your arms
And I'm thanking you for giving it to me

What I want, is what you got
And what you got, is what I want

There was a time I was blind, I was so confused
I'd run away just to hide it all from you
But baby you knew me better, oh
Than I knew myself
They say if you love something let it go
And if it comes back it's yours
And that's how you know
It's for keeps, yeah, it's for sure
And you're ready and willing to give me more than

What a girl wants, what a girl needs
Somebody sensitive, crazy sexy cool like you
What a girl wants, what a girl needs
Somebody who can come and blow her mind like you do
What a girl wants (you're so right), what a girl needs (you're so good)
You let a girl know how much you
Care about her, I swear
You're the one who always knew...


Always what I need, always what I want
What I need, what I want, and you've got, yeah yeah
Oh baby, I thank you, cause you know...
Oh baby, oh darling, thank you
Thank you for giving me what I want,
I turn around there, whenever you're not there

yesterday I went to a Honda Tour:)but we didn't get any Honda's as souvenir ;)kidding...I have seen several plants before but this was my first time seeing a mechanical engineering plant...I always thought these plants are highly automized..but only some parts were automized...in general it was a nice plant..very clean and during the tour they gave us headsets because there were so much noise and the tourguid was speaking to us through a microphone!!anyways it the whole experience was great..I got a statue of a cat;)form one of Mohandes exec. its sooooooo cute...there was also a blushing momonet;)naturally I ask everyone where are they working or which company do they work for...and there was this guy who I asked this question...and he kinda laughed and said oh I have my own company!!!!!

what would you do if you realize that what you thought was the trueth and fact is just an illusion and fiction?I sooooo confused....right not to me everything is doubt full....how I miss the times that I was in the realm that I thought everything is trustworthy and everyone is truethful...

You're My Heart, You're My Soul (Modern Talking)

Deep in my heart - there's a fire - a burning heart
Deep in my heart - there's desire - for a start
I'm dying in emotion
It's my world in fantasy
I'm living in my, living in my dreams

You're my heart, you're my soul
I'll keep it shining everywhere I go
You're my heart, you're my soul
I'll be holding you forever
Stay with you together

Your my heart, you're my soul
Yeah, I'm feeling that our love will grow
You're my heart, you're my soul
That's the only thing I really know

Let's close the door and believe my burning heart
Feeling alright come on open up your heart
Keep the candles burning
Let your body melt in mine
I'm living in my, living in my dreams


Your my heart, you're my soul
Yeah, I'm feeling that our love will grow
You're my heart, you're my soul
That's the only thing I really know

its getting closer and closer to Halloweeeeeeeeen:)and I am getting more excited than ever...I can wait to wear a costume...I hope there is a draculla in the party;)but I guess I have to wait and see until friday..Saturday was Azar Nafisi's lecture at U of T...and it was wonderull..its these lectures that makes me miss Iran more and want to have gone to university there...tomorrow is going to be exciting as well..because I am going to a tour of Honda!!!yahooo...it should be interesting...may be can find my knite in there the same was that Joelle found hers at Tembec...its nearly their anniversary..I can't beilive it ....1 year has passed...good for them....I am hoping they get married..and I get to go to a wedding;)....since it seems..I will never have a relationship with guys let alone getting married...so I am candidating all my friends to all the guys out there...and I garantee that they are wonderfull;)

last year this day...I was in Vancouver attedning a conference:) it was one of the best memories I have from U of T...I kept on thinking how my life would be in the year after?I now..I know..I guess its an improvement..but different things to worry about...any ways about the conference..it was really great..specially there were prof from U of T that chaired some sessions...this year my supervisor is actually chairing the composite group:)I didn't go to the conference this year which is being hold in Hamilton...but probably next year:)last year..it was 10 of us..girls and boys to go..we got one of the best hotels..sheriton and our rooms were perfect....and the funny thing was our room..the girls room was next to boys room..and there two doors in between that could be locked by either party:)it was funny...the first night..the guys got drunk..and the morning after when we went to their room to wake them up, instead of 2 bed..there were 4 mattresses on the floor!!!!apparantly the guys didn't like the idea of sharing beds;)which was no problem with girls...anyways that was really funny...it was great...specailly the party that UBC students through and U of C students asked us all of us to out to lunch with them:)all was wonderfull...I will never forget that time in mylife...

Objection (Tango)
Words and Music by: Shakira


It's not her fault that she's so irresistible
But all the damage she's caused isn't fixable
Every twenty seconds you repeat her name
But when it comes to me you don't care
If I'm alive or dead

So objection I don't wanna be the exception
To get a bit of your attention
I love you for free and I'm not your mother
But you don't even bother

Objection I'm tired of this triangle
Got dizzy dancing tango
I'm falling apart in your hands again
No way I've got to get away

Next to her cheap silicon I look minimal
That's why in front of your eyes I'm invisible
But you gotta know small things also count
You better put your feet on the ground
And see what it's about

Objection I don't wanna be the exception
To get a bit of your attention
I love you for free and I'm not your mother
But you don't even bother

Objection I'm tired of this triangle
Got dizzy dancing tango
I'm falling apart in your hands again
No way I've got to get away

I wish there was a chance for you and me
I wish you couldn't find a place to be
Away from here

This is pathetic and sardonic
It's sadistic and psychotic
Tango is not for three
Was never meant to be

But you can try it
Rehearse it
Or train like a horse
But don't you count on me
Don't you count on me boy

Objection I don't wanna be the exception
To get a bit of your attention
I love you for free and I'm not your mother
And you don't even bother

Objection I'm tired of this triangle
Got dizzy dancing tango
I'm falling apart in your hands again
No way I've got to get away